Hi, I'm Emily, and I'm a poet. So I have no life. I've been battling depression for 4 years now, and I've been dealing with self harm for about 2 years. Need to talk or just have a question, please, ask, I would love to talk to you, and anon is always on ^_^
And breathing feels more like
I’m tearing my soul apart.
Seeing your face
Is more painful than
Soap in my eyes,
Because I still can’t
Avoid that when I’m in the shower.
So I’m not sure whether
to leave you alone,
And give you peace,
or tell you everything,
And have you hate me.
Dear Mr. Sandman,
Won’t you visit me tonight?
It seems you’ve been gone
For four long years,
And I’m missing you tonight.
Anonymous asked: God, I love you so much darling. I hope you know that. <3
I love you too anon. And no, I didn’t know <3
Anonymous asked: Not eventually darling. Now. Are you okay, now. Not a question. A demand. I love you to death. I need to know. (sorry for all the punctuation. I tend to do that a lot....)
The fact of the matter is that I’m not okay now. And I won’t be for awhile. That’s just kinda how depression goes. There’ll be bad days, and there’ll be better days, and once the better days come more often than the bad days, then I’ll be okay.
Anonymous asked: Are you okay? I love you and want to know that you'll be alright. I think we all want you to be alright.
I’m doing okay, love. ^_^ And thank you, that means a lot. I will be alright, eventually.
You don’t have to worry about me, I promise I’m okay tonight.
Thank you though <3 I love you too.
On that night, I learned that what they say is true.
It’s an addiction
Because once you create
Just a few, red, innocent lines,
You’ll be okay, right?
Wrong.
A few turns into a dozen.
They get wider,
They get deeper.
These cuts are no longer innocent.
And you just keep cutting deeper,
deeper,
d
e
e
p
e
r
Until eventually,
you just bleed out.
Anonymous asked: You are beautiful. Keep your chin up because its worth it in the end xx
You literally just made me cry. Thank you, I love this, I love you.
You once asked me why I love Tic Tacs.
Well, I pop Tic Tacs to practice
When I’ll pop pills.
That’s why I take so many at a time.
You also asked me why I can drink so fast.
Well, I’m just drinking quick
To practice when I drink the booze.
Cause Mummy said it tastes awful,
So I’m just making sure I’ll get it down
Quick.
No amount of makeup
Will ever cover up
The scars you left on my heart
Or the ones left on my arm.
